Trust is something that I search for in my professional life, personal life, and in my life of a fellow M.Ed. learner. I believe that most people want to be trusted and trustworthy. When you are trustworthy it represents the type of person that you are. As I read chapter eight, The Principle of Trust, I had a hard time answering “yes” to all of the questions being asked on trust. The chapter states that when you give trust to others you will receive it back.
This chapter also talked about the key role trust plays in leadership. It goes on to say that you cannot be an effective leader without trusting yourself and others. I found it interesting that the chapter stated that trust is about the choices we make, not about the other person. If you are not a trusting leader, you will waste time second guessing yourself and micromanaging your employees. I strive to be a trustworthy person in my professional life with coworkers, my principle, parents, etc. I am always trying to do the right thing by exhibiting integrity.
I will be the first to admit that I struggle with trust myself. After reading this chapter, I have realized that I need to further explore my feelings on trust with myself. I will continue to struggle with trusting others as long as I cannot trust myself. I always thought my trust issues to this day steamed from my youth with a couple of mean friends who hurt me so deeply. I still feel I carry scares and a heavy heart when I reflect back to my memories with these mean girls. I am shocked at how long and how much non- trustworthy people can affect your life. I believe it is key to ask for guidance within your higher self, and that you need to trust that you will receive it.
Lastly, as a fellow M.Ed. learner I am searching for trust with my instructors and the other learners. I need to accept that I am what I am, and that nobody is perfect. I am so hard on myself, it took me a great deal of courage to even sign up for this SMU program. I need to be okay with the fact that, “part of what I am is a work in progress.”
I will continue to practice and challenge my self-trust and my trust in others. I thought Mother Teresa’s quote summed up this chapter beautifully. The quote says, “Give the world the best you have, and it may never be enough; give the world the best you’ve got anyway.”